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I don't like feeling like I'm the only one who actually misses the way things were, socially, in high school. I had a much better social life in high school than I have here at college, and it feels like there's something wrong with that, because college is supposed to be the next step up, and I feel depressed here the way I used to feel depressed in middle school. I've gone BACKWARDS. Everyone's moved on and has new friends, just like all the adults in my life warned me would happen, and I do not feel missed very much at all. I am very replacable. Especially after a conversation I had with someone tonight, but I'm not dropping names (except to say, even though she doesn't read this - Megan, it's not you) for once. I don't think it was intentional on the other person's part, but they made me feel really shitty. God I fucking hate college. My life, now, consists of homework and grades, and not much else. Melissa and Megan are really all I've got going for me up here; everything else just blows. It's Saturday night/Sunday morning, and I'm doing homework. In high school, on Saturday nights, usually I'd be either talking to Snare online, or hanging out with Megan, Jenny, and Taylor playing video or card or board games. I miss that, and I want to go back to it. But I'm the only one.
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